Well..bein's I've been away all weekend..I have to post in retrospect.

Sat. 3/6/2010

Another "grandma" weekend.
I can honestly say that I do enjoy the long drive from Rochester to Rockford. It forces me to sit still and contemplate....usually I listen to my Bible CDs. It's not that I normally don't sit and contemplate.. mostly I just sit. At home. I'm not an overly ambitious individual any more. Maybe it's my old age. If I were a dog, I think I'd be a bassett hound.
Yeah.
Today was really nice for a change. (weather wise) The sun was out and the temperature was a balmy 41 degrees. Yaaayy!..more meltage going on. Maybe by May I will be able to see my lawn again.
Driving down to mom's gets me away from my normal, mundane existence there in my little house. Don't get me wrong..there is plenty to do. I'm just not very motivated to do it. So, it's good for me to have an external need that forces me to get off my butt and do something. I would much rather do something for someone else than take care of my own 'business'.
Why is that??
Sometimes I wish I was more involved in my community...but I know that as long as I'm working , and have so many impromptu overtime requirements...plus my crazy hours..it just aint gonna happen yet. so, I just think about it. Contemplate. What could I do that's constructive? Am i justifying my inaction? or is there just a tinge of self-guilt?

And time just passes... tic... tic.... tic...

Not a very good use of my time, is it?
Lord, teach me to count my days... redeem the time...